I’ve been having a discussion with Navarre about this blog. It seems I over-think this whole enterprise. To me, it is ever fraught with intrigue. It is my domain! It’s all fun and games to rule based on whims, fancies, overwhelming emotion, silliness, and self-indulgence when it’s just me and kitties. All those who read do so at their own peril and are free to click away at any time. But I find Navarre wrapped up in this craziness rather more than he should be. He is a private person, with his own complications. I don’t mind if the only reason people read what I write is morbid curiosity about me, but I am bothered if this blog becomes a way for people to satisfy morbid curiosity they may have about him. I will therefore carefully limit how much I write about him and our relationship. I wanted to let you all know so that you don’t worry that he’s gone away. He hasn’t, and I think I’m running out of ways to scare him off.
I think I may soon have a new email address ready for action: foo@bunnythefoo.com. Modern technology leads to ever greater levels of awesomeness.
As despot, I like to know what’s going on in my domain. I know that where the brooks cross one may find clover and perhaps a bee. I keep an eye on the comings and goings. I like to see a steady stream of traffic. Good for my deranged ego. But one amongst that number concerns me, and it is that person I now address: This is not a place you should visit, not if you wish to avoid pain. The pain will continue as long as you keep feeding it. I am both sympathetic and unsympathetic. Both these feelings interfere with my ability to write freely. Please go away.
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JW // May 7, 2008 at 7:09 am
I went through the same privacy conflict with the obvious person in my life. While I thought what I was saying was harmless, the ultimate fact I had to face is that reporting on someone else’s life was not my place. So anonymous references became the norm — because if “we” went somewhere, saying “I” seems a little retarded. But anonymously describing other people’s actions receives the virtual editorial pen.
bunnythefoo // May 8, 2008 at 7:42 pm
I guess there’s a fine line. I don’t think he’s ever been bothered by anything I’ve written, mostly because he doesn’t really get around to reading the blog very much. But as I told him the other night, I don’t want people reading my blog to read about him because it’s my blog and I want it to be all about me
If one is going to create one’s own little universe, one should be the center of that universe. I do think I have less need to write stuff concerning him now than I used to. I used to need to use the blog as a tool for venting and articulating thoughts and feelings, but I’ve gotten much better about communicating directly with him so if something is on my mind I just talk to him, which is a much more satisfying way of dealing with stuff than blogging.
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